Crystalline

My head has been reeling as of late.  Complete sentences have escaped me.

Somehow my photos showed up all weird and processed on Blogger.  Initially I thought about fixing it, but the more I look at it the more I like it this way...

My whole world has just felt like a roller coaster.  Feelings of pure joy, deep sorrow, holiness, shame, acceptance, embarrassment...I could go on, but I'll spare the people of the internet.  Recently I have felt more like myself than I ever have, yet so unlike myself that it's almost haunting.

I've been in pursuit of grace, trying to unearth what it really means to me.  Yesterday, as I was greeting my kids coming in for class, one of the little boys (we'll call him Linus) showed wisdom far beyond his years.  He said,

"Mom, I was just thinking about how great it is to be alive.  Don't you think so, too?"

I think I found a sliver of grace.

Unfortunately, I'm finding that the older I get the more focus people put on the unimportant.  I'd rather spend my days with Linus, discussing the joys of life, than trying to fit in with my peers, who seem to have an immense fear of anything or anyone different.

I really believe, in all the muck and yuck of the everyday, that it truly is great to be alive.  I hope I never lose sight of that.

*xo*