Human Beans

The First Wives Club [*sidebar: Have you seen it?  If not, go find it right now.  Goldie Hawn.  Bette Midler.  Diane Keaton.  In the 90s.  Pure genius!] spoke to me in an existential way this evening through none other than the glamorous and flighty Elise Elliot:

You think that because I'm a movie star I don't have feelings.

Well you're wrong.  I'm an actress.

I've got all of 'em!

It's a hilarious line, but it struck a chord somewhere in me.  The reason I'm trying to stay away from acting now that I'm not a "Performance" major is because of the overabundance of feelings that must be felt.  They're sticky, and they hurt, which is something that I kinda don't want to voluntarily put myself through.  Like I said, theatre people are insane.  However, since my avoidance of acting I've noticed an avoidance of feelings in myself.  Of course I feel, but I also suppress.  Not only are feelings sticky, but other people's reactions to an expression of said feelings are even stickier.  In other words, that stuff's embarrassing, y'all.  The illustrious Goldie Hawn made me realize that things happen to me, and I'm allowed to respond without having to worry about what other people will say.  

~xo~